August is a strange time for me. This is the month that I celebrate the life of my beautiful daughter, who just turned five. I also mourn the loss of her twin, Peyton, who died at birth. From outward appearances, my involvement in Gemini Crickets stems from my being the mom of my crazy three-and-a-half year old twin boys. But, I was a twin mom even before that when I got pregnant with my identical twin girls.
Mine is a somewhat confusing tale to outsiders. They ask if my twin boys were born premature and I shake my head as I remember the birth of the boys, one who weighed just over seven pounds; the other, just under seven pounds. The doctor and nurses exclaimed as they pulled the boys out, “Wow, those are BIG twins!” If I happen to mention that my daughter was 13 weeks premature, inevitably the next question is, “Do they know why?” The answer to this is unfortunately somewhat complicated and too tragic for public consumption so I usually respond with something vague.
The situation is that Nicole and Peyton were in a precarious physiological state when they were in my womb. Being identical twins, they shared a placenta and were at risk for a condition called “twin-to-twin-transfusion-syndrome” or TTTS. Single babies actually reside in two sacs. The outer sac is the amniotic sac; the inner is the chorionic sac. When twins share a chorionic sac, they also share a placenta and there is a danger that their blood supplies can become connected. This results in one twin literally giving the other a transfusion. As a result, one twin gets too much blood/nutrients (the recipient); the other not enough (the donor). This places a lot of strain on both babies and the mortality rate is 60-100%. Strangely, it is often the recipient who has the harder time due to the stress of all the extra fluids on the baby’s organs, but this wasn't the case with us. Nicole was the recipient and Peyton was the donor.







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